Do you know what i miss most?
i miss having the computer at work to myself.
i miss not being able to do work given to me.
i just miss it ok.

ITP's ending soon.
and i'm gonna miss having lunch with liyanah and eda, my regular lunch partners.
and i'm gonna miss going to the recent "hot" place where we have our take aways and chat like nobody's business.
i'm gonna miss talking to them about work. how boring is work. how we felt like going home straight after lunch. and counting down the days to the end of itp. omg.. those three things.. its like a daily topic laaa.. hahaha.
i'm gonna miss the daily emails we sent out to each other during work. it was soo fun. well, itp was fun when you have such company. the emails and msn really made me survive the itp war. LOL.
oh and yahhhh.. apart from emails.. there's like a whole lot of blogs that me and liyanah discovered. and yeahhh.. talked about. HAHA.
omg.. i'm gonna miss that too laaa.
if you asked me how many blogs have i gone to for the past 6 months.. i'm gonna say countless! cos i think we went to more than 40 blogs. haha.

about work.
i miss creating and updating of schedules, eventhough i got bored of it after some time.
i miss doing freight.
i miss declaring of containers.
i miss doing monthly marketing report.
i miss doing extra tasks given by other people.

for now, allow me to use the computer for the whole of wednesday and half of thursday pls.
because, i just feel so lost not using it. it has been my life for the past six months you know.
i'm 3 days closer to the end of itp. so please... let me use it. and let me do my last few tasks. it's not that i'm being selfish. i just feel like.. some things are not meant to be taught and told. you have to experience it yourself in order to know what you're doing.

kauu.. type panjang2 pun tak guna.
kat blog boleh ah cakap gini.
depan budak baru.. semua ok.
omg. i'm being toooooo nice.
and too lenient i think.

let me ask you people a question k.
let's say work ends at 6pm.
it's your first day.
would you stay behind on your first day just to practice what was being taught?
would you? would you?

i wouldn't. because..
1. i'm new. it is ideal to leave at 6pm. maybe latest 6.15pm. but certainly not exceeding 6.30pm. and colleagues will definitely understand.
2. i have one week to practice. plus, the job is super duper easy.
3. i have a life.
4. i don't want to lie to myself. eventhough i'm excited about it.. i don't want to be seen as someone who's trying to please people and get 'name'. maybe in some circumstances, yes.. you need to find a way to get 'up there'. even sucking up to people. but most of the time, i think it's nonsense. i don't want to be seen as a fake.

i'm done blogging.
i thought last week of itp would be pleasant. but guess what. 2 days has passed. and i'm certainly not enjoying it.
i certainly knew i didn't give rifdie a hard time. i was a nice nice girl. even when emails came in for him, i informed him. see.. i was nice. LOL.

oklah. now done. really. good night! (: