i'm so thankful/grateful for having you as a father, baba.
you just know so much and too well about your daughters.
when you said 'bila ibu cakap nanti pergi jakarta aisyah belanje, baba tau macam mana aisyah rasa. i know how you feel. walaupun ibu cuma bergurau aje.'
when you said that just now ba, i just felt like my tears would fall any minute. but luckily, it didn't.


-pause-
-think of how to type what's in the head-
-type-
-erase them back-


i wanted to write what my mum said that made me angry/disappointed.
but it's best i don't write it.
i know my parents do make mistakes, say the wrong things at times.
sometimes i do want to write down what happened in the house (if it is about something bad that results to me being angry/sad).
but then, i would think twice.
and decided not to write about it. because i don't want people to think that my parents are bad people/bad parents. (or know much about my family. personal life lah katakan. haha!)
cos seriously, they are not.
they are simply the best (all of you will say the same thing too right. hehe).
they have taught me a lot. educate me in every way possible.
about life, relationships, studies.. and also motivate me (but they mostly motivate najihah, cos she needs it more than me. haha.)
and i don't think writing it here would make me feel better. it would make me feel worse actually. haha.


so yeah.
-read back what i typed-
ok, now i don't know what i wanted to say actually. haha.
(i think i sidetrack jauh sekali.) sorry hor.


i think i wanted to say this.
baba, you've sacrificed a lot for us.
having two jobs so that, we can have have what we want.
if i have the power and money, i wouldn't want my parents to work.
and i don't think i would need a 'pembantu rumah'.
because it didn't really help, you know.


why, why, why am i writing this. haha.
because just now, i met baba near the tanjung pagar market.
and he talked about money.
apparently, najihah's school fees supposed to be $350 each month as she has scholarship from new balance. but starting from middle of last year, new balance stopped the sponsorship and scholarship.
so this year, instead of $350 per month, najihah's school fees shot up to $700.


so do well in sports school, sister.
$700 is not a small sum.
make us proud. make ibu and baba proud.
at least, they know, the money they earned to pay for your school fees, didn't go to waste. (:


actually, that applies to me, alinur and alisha also. HAHA.
and i seriously want to get a part time job. not kidding. haha.


yours trully,
Syah