it's just difficult.
haiz.

i hate it that i can't really understand people.
i hate it that i can't read their minds or maybe have an idea what's on their mind.
i hate it that things are changing.
i hate it that he still bothers you.

at this point of time, there's just too much hatred.

&
i've been thinking a lot lately.
yes. A LOT.
i really think its a lot.
but i just don't know what i was thinking about.
it's like.. in a mess also.

hmm..
if keeping to oneself is the best solution, then i should keep to myself also.
because, suddenly i feel like there's no one i can reach out to.
they are just so far.
no matter how close our relationship is, i still think we are far.
really. it's just.. different.
and maybe because you or me have not open up to each other for a long time.
i just feel there's something missing. ):

i feel like i'm dying inside.