mood:

if possible, i would want my family, girlfriends, friends to be there.
it's saddening to know that they can't make it.
ibu and baba and adik adik can't make it.
i'm demoralised, by now.
& i feel like crying. but i can't.

knowing that 12 guys got in doesn't make me feel any better.
i'm dead.

yours trully,
Syah